Thoughts of A Female

!! ربما يقول البعض أني أبالغ و لكن هذه هي الحقيقة مع تعديل بسيط و هو أني في سن الواحد و الثلاثون

لا أزال طفلة لا أفقه من أمور الدنيا ما ينفعني أو يضرني
لا أزال طفلة لا أعرف الصح من الغلط
لا أزال طفلة لا أعرف عدوي من صديقي
لا أزال طفلة لا أعرف مصلحة نفسي
لا أزال طفلة لا تعرف تختار ملابسها بنفسها
لا أزال طفلة لا تستطيع السفر لوحدها
لا أزال طفلة و لا أزال طفلة و لا أزال طفلة

!! هذا هو تعريفي لدى أهلي: طفلة تجاوزت سن الثلاثين


لا أريد أن يفهمني القراء خطئا، ان حبي لأهلي حب لا يوصفه بشر و معزتي لهم تفوق وصف البشر و لكن .... يحزنني أنهم

في بعض الأحيان ينسون أني انسانة لها قيمة -
ينسون أن عندي طموحات تفوق الوصف -
ينسون أن لي رأي في حياتي -

اختارت لي والدتي طريقة الجامعة و قبلت *
اختارت لي أختي طريق الدراسات العليا و قبلت *
اختار لي أخي شركة للعمل بها و قبلت *

أعرف في قرارة نفسي أن أهلي يريدون مصلحتي، و متأكدة من حبهم لي و لن أجادل في هذا الشئ ما حييت ...


و لكن كل ما أريده منهم هو ....

سمع شكواي و عدم التعليق عليها حتى و لو كانت من دون معنى <
مسح دمعتي و عدم القول أني دلوعة <
سماع صوتي عند الاحتجاج و عدم اسكاتي <

It hits me just now to write somethings about my life ...



My life is so simple, sometimes i feel that i love my life and other times i feel like hating it. I guess this is life for all of us. God !! i really don't know why do i hate my life sometimes. I am a spoiled kid seriously! i have everything a girl may wish for. I have never asked for something and i didn't get it since i was a kid. Here when sometimes i think why do i hate my life and i have everything that most of the girls envy me for!! Just let me list for you what I got:



1. A family who loves me
2. A great Health, il7amdullelah
3. My family trust
4. 2 best friends who really means alot to me
5. A great degree
6. A great car
7. A good job; till now :)
8. I travel every summer and whenever i want
9. I go out whenever i want



I really don't know what a girl could ask for more?!! hmmm, wait a minute ! A guy, the guy is the only thing i miss in my life. I have never been in a good relationship and all the time i was the victim, not because they didn't treat me well but its me. I was the reason for not being in a good relationship, either by being with the wrong person or by refusing to be with the right person and in both cases i am the one to be blamed and not the guys.



Sometimes, I stay with myself and think what do i wish to have. It takes time from me and at the end the result one score ! the only thing i wish for is to marry a man who loves me and respect me. But as they say, no one gets everything he/she wants in life.Finally, i realized that i have to say il7umdillah for what i have and never complain. I learned this after along time of pain and sorrows that i put myself in.



Life is a big smile to me now, and its not a big lie like before. I started to look at that bright side of life and I smile :) so, I wish that all people reach this level and to reach it you have to remember that the only one who is going to help you is GOD and no one else

The Story of Hajj starts with an introduction about Prophet Ibrahim or Abraham (pbuh)



ABRAHAM



Abraham is a figure revered by Muslims, Jews, and Christians alike as a righteous person who lived over four thousand years ago. His story can be found in the Bible as well as the Qur'an (the Muslim holy book). Abraham is considered to be the patriach of monotheism, or "belief in the One God," who sought a personal relationship with his Creator. He left his native city of Ur in Mesopotamia after voicing opposition to his people's polytheistic practices, and eventually settled in Egypt with his family. Later, he escorted one of his wives, Hajar, and their infant son Ishmail, to a desolate valley in Arabia and left them there, trusting in God's promise to care for them.
Hajar, concerned about feeding her young baby, began searching the surroundings for food and water. According the the Qur'an, in response to Hajar's prayers, a spring miraculously gushed forth at Ishma'il's feet to quench their thirst. Hajar climbed nearby hills searching for food and looking for caravans on the horizon. Eventually, some passing traders stopped in the valley, and asked Hajar's permission to water their camels. In time, the traders decided to settle in the little valley, and eventually the settlement grew into the city of Makkah. Abraham returned from time to time to visit, and when Ishma'il was about thirteen years old, he and Ishma'il constructed the Katbah, an empty cube-shaped building, as a place dedicated for the worship of the One God. Eventually, Makkah became an important trading post by the time of Prophet Muhammad, twenty- five hundred years later.


THE HAJJ



In commemoration of the trials of Abraham and his family in Makkah, which included Abraham's willingness to sacrifice his son in response to God's command, Muslims make a pilgrimage to the sacred city at least once in their lifetime. The Hajj is one of the "five pillars" of Islam, and thus an essential part of Muslims' faith and practice.


Muslims from all over the world, including the United States, travel to Makkah (in modern- day Saudi Arabia). Before arriving in the holy city, Muslims enter a state of consecration (dedication) known as ihram, by removing their worldly dothes and donning the humble attire of pilgrimsÑtwo seamless white sheets for men, and simple white dresses and scarves for women. The white garments are symbolic of human equality and unity before God, since all the pilgrims are dressed similarly. Money and status no longer are a factor for the pilgrims - the equality of each person in the eyes of God becomes paramount.


Upon arriving in Makkah, pilgrims perform the initial tawaf, which is a circular, counter- clockwise procession around the Ka'bah. All the while, they state "Labbayka Allahumma Labbayk," which means "Here I am at your service, O God, Here I am!" The tawaf is meant to awaken each Muslim's consciousness that God is the center of their reality and the source of all meaning in life, and that each person's higher self-identity derives from being part of the community of Muslim believers, known as the ummah. Pilgrims also perform the sa'i, which is hurrying seven times between the small hills named Safa and Marwah, reenacting the Biblical and Qurtanic story of Hajar's desperate search for lifegiving water and food.


Next, on the first official day of Hajj (8th of Dhul-Hijjah), the two million pilgrims travel a few miles to the plain of Mina and camp there. From Mina, pilgrims travel the following morning to the plain of Arafat where they spend the entire day in earnest supplication and devotion. That evening, the pilgrims move and camp at Muzdalifa, which is a site between Mina and Arafat. Muslims stay overnight and offer various prayers there.


Then the pilgrims return to Mina on the 10th, and throw seven pebbles at a stone pillar that represents the devil. This symbolizes Abraham's throwing stones at Satan when he tried to dissuade Abraham from sacrificing his son. Then the pilgrims sacrifice a sheep, reenacting the story of Abraham,who, in place of his son, sacrificed a sheep that God had provided as a substitute. The meat from the slaughtered sheep is distributed for consumption to family, friends, and poor and needy people in the community. After the sacrifice, the pilgrims return to Makkah to end the formal rites of Hajj by performing a final tawaf and sa'i.
Muslims believe the rites of the Hajj were designed by God and taught through prophet Muhammad. Muslims believe that since the time of Adam, there have been thousands of prophets, including such well-known figures as Noah, Abraham, Moses, Jesus, and David, and that Muhammad was the final prophet of God.


The Hajj is designed to develop God consciousness and a sense of spiritual upliftment. It is also believed to be an opportunity to seek forgiveness of sins accumulated thoughout life. Prophet Muhammad had said that a person who performs Hajj properly "will return as a newly born baby [free of all sins]." The pilgrimage also enables Muslims from all around the world, of different colors, languages, races, and ethnicities, to come together in a spirit of universal brotherhood and sisterhood to worship the One God together.



Taken from http://www.islamicity.com/mosque/hajj/Adha/story_of_hajj.htm

I wrote this post in English in purpose so all people from all over the world can understand what I want to say and what my message is. My journey to faith is the Hajj. It is one of the five Islamic basics. Hajj was a first step for me to know myself. You analyze your inner self and you know what you want from life exactly.

Hajj for me was cleaning my soul,my heart and my mind from everything and after this journey you will know how to control yourself when you are mad and when you are sad, and i wish that God will keep me like this till death. I wish that all muslims feel the same when they go to Hajj and for non-muslims i wish that you can understand the meaning of hajj and what it means to Muslims.

The main point of hajj is to do what God ask us to do and to pay all the respect and prayers to our prophet Mohammed Peace be upon him. Who goes to hajj will know exactly what i mean and those who didnt know the story behind hajj and they will feel it one day. The jouney to faith (hajj) is the first step and you learn there what you may face in the promise day where we all wait for the mercy of God.

This was my my journey to faith and in another post i will try to find the story of hajj in English for all people around the world to know what God gave us and why we the Muslims appreciate this holy spot of earth.