Thoughts of A Female

Tears are my friends these days. They are with me all the time. They consolate me for what i've been through. I love my tears because they remind me of him. He is away now and may be has someone else, but for me am still here waiting for a call or an sms from him. I choose to be away because he thinks that we won't be good together and i cannot be with someone who is one day makes me the princess of his night and the other day am nothing to him. I was so hard on myself,it was like shooting myself and instead of killing all the feelings that i had for him, i injured my heart and the bullet still there and no sergeon will ever be able to take it out! he was the smile of my heart. I still remember his smile and how we were great together.He has his way of thinking and i cannot go along with such thoughts, although i know that love means sacrefices but i cannot change my way of thinking for anyone because i dont trust that he has the same feelings for me. And this is why i pulled myself from this relation and this is why tears are my friends nowadays.